Where am I?

Who turned out the lights?

Once again I sit alone in darkness

Unsure of all that seems real when the sun shines

I am so familiar with the absence of light

It was my custodian through trying times

My benevolent protector when my reality burned

Scalded by the flames of self inflicted radiation

 Shadows kept me safe from poisonous predators

The light has gone away once more

As I am enveloped by the inner calm of blackness



I see you there with a hand outstretched

Enticing me, testing my will as you do

Beckoning me to trust in your touch

Reassuring me with the promise of tranquility

The warmth of day awaits if only I take your hand

Sounds of laughter will only be replaced by a cacophony

A dissonance born of unimaginable self loathing

This I know as certainly as I know the darkness is tangible



So coax me if you must, as that is your purpose

It will only make this warriors armor stronger

To be constantly reminded of the battlefields of old

Keep on with the promises of eternal light and warmth

For I see all too well the dangers inherent within the glow

Reach forever outward to grasp control of my livelihood

As it will now and evermore be denied with steadfast resolve

I have come to know one thing above all in the company of shadows



It is far better to feel my way through the darkness with uncertainty

Than to be touched again by the perilous mistakes of a past in the light


Divine Contradiction

Beautiful Dark and Light. (one and the same)

She wields the sword of daylight,

Brings the peace of night as well.

Representative of the Heavens, 

Delegate to the Devil

Wonders of the universe,

The horrors of Hell


Seductively wicked

Passionately tender

A timeless virgin

And timely whore

Immeasurably shrewd

Yet blissfully ignorant

She is all these things

And so much more


Truths and lies be told

They share the same name

Both contrasts and

Contradictions allude

That the Dark and the Light

Are truly one and the same.